Taking leaps of faith: Stepping into the flow of life

In early 2022 I felt that it was time to fully embark on my journey, to leave Germany and my old life behind. I started to receive visions and actual felt-sense experiences calling me South. I felt the pull of my heart, and beyond that, I felt a longing in my soul. I began planning a roadtrip to Spain and Portugal – Own Spirit & Boom festivals – and then, one day, I was ready, I took a deep breath, and sent off the cancelation notice for my apartment.

The Traveler ꩜ I sold almost everything I owned so I could move more freely, and while my life already felt quite magical at that point, looking back the decision to up and leave was probably my first quantum leap. Life began to unfold in miraculous ways. And there’s a few things I want to highlight here:

꩜ Detachment: The willingness to let go of everything I had known and identified myself with up until that point – old job, relationship, home, country, belongings, old ways of being – afforded me the freedom to move in any direction. Not having much to hold on to brought me into deeper presence, an acute awareness that I get to choose which way to go, and that every choice will alter the course of my life. It’s also comforting to know that there’s no wrong choices, only detours and lessons.
꩜ Attunement & Resonance: The mind usually craves safety and looks for the known. The heart desires freedom; it is mysterious and will always lead us into the unknown. Stillness and presence make it so much easier to attune to the subtle voice within, to discern between the anxious energy of the mind and the deep resonance of the heart. It’s beautiful to know that the more we practice listening to and acting on our intuition, the stronger it becomes. My heart is usually so loud and clear, it’s hard to not hear it hahaha 𓃬 aaand still, sometimes the mind gets me! Ask me about my India/Costa Rica story. That also includes a great example of how what’s meant for us will come to us.
꩜ Spaciousness: The more spaciousness we create in our lives, the more room there is for the new. That includes people, places, thoughts, things.
꩜ Fearlessness: Osho, one of my teachers, has a beautiful book on courage. Therein, he describes how fearlessness means facing your fears and consciously choosing not to give them power.
꩜ Integration: It takes time to integrate new states of being. This helps you to become a vibrational match for your new reality. I somehow always seem to need three days to integrate life-changing news and events. This becomes increasingly important when we move into the quantum field where shifts can happen instantaneously, because it really is a matter of stabilizing energetic states.
꩜ Trust: Trust starts within – trusting that we are able to move with whatever life has in store for us. I have gone through some more extreme experiences in order to truly try and test this for you, just to be sure, hahaha. Ask me about stories from Guatemala and Costa Rica!

A long story short: At the first festival, I met my future room mate as well as my future lover. Two months later, I moved to Ibiza. Another two months later, my heart spoke again, loud and clear, and I knew that it was time to quit my job and focus on the new life, new country, new relationships in front of me – and more than anything, to manifest the vision in my heart.

Embracing Fearlessness

While the intimate connection I have with my heart is really helpful in terms of trust, that was definitely the biggest test of courage for me yet. Quitting my job – a really great one that I loved – meant letting go of my income, the money that secured my survival. This is Root Chakra level – safety, security, survival – so imagine the level of trust required to take the leap.

It took me a month. During this month, an interesting idea started to form… that same day and place in Mallorca, after my heart had spoken, my beloved and I both received an aura reading. It came with a full report on our current energetic state – chakras, frequencies, aura colors and more. We were both fascinated, and somehow started playing with the idea of doing something similar. I’m shortening the story here as much as possible, but on the lines of fearlessness I’d like to share a poem that came through in September 2022.

Dancing with fear
When fear grips your heart,
Let it be
And instead of pushing it away
Make some space,
And touch it
How does it feel?

Does it feel like your heart is shrinking in your chest?
I find it more difficult to breathe

But I breathe
I take a deep breath in,
Then another one out
Another one in
And a deeper one out

Deep breathing is one of the easiest and most effective ways to regulate our nervous systems,
which is essential to self-regulate our emotions

When fear grips your heart
Get curious
And instead of distracting yourself
Look at it
When and where does it arise?

Can you recognize your patterns?
Can you identify the roots of your fears?

Practicing curiosity will help you to stay grounded and centered, it will help you to use your fear as a guide,
a teacher that is taking you deeper into yourself.

When fear grips your heart
Stay open
And instead of fighting it
Listen to it
What is it telling you?

When you decide not to listen but to jump anyway, you may be courageous – or silly.
But either way, you’re not really receiving the gift.

When you recognize your fears as a pointer, as a gift, you open yourself to the wisdom
that will eventually lead you home to your self.

Life has a way of testing our resolve sometimes,
and it provides opportunities for us to see how far we have truly come.

When you invite your fears in
to meet them, consciously face to face
Let yourself be filled by them, move with them, and then let go

You’ll start to become fearless
More integrated, more whole

And suddenly, you are free

Self-Realization

A few months later, my beloved and I co-created a business together (my first business!) – offering aura + energy readings, working with the chakras to facilitate personal and spiritual growth. I went even deeper into the world of energy, frequency, vibration. My lover and I both went on an intense, beautiful, transformative journey together, that hugely inspired our work, and then A Journey Through The Chakras started coming through for me. A synthesis of my work and my own experience. The relationship didn’t last, but AJTTC was born out of it, and became a wonderful success.

Root Chakra Activation in Costa Rica

After leaving the relationship, I went to Central America, and from there on, everything changed. All of a sudden, one dream after the other came true: I started teaching regular Yoga classes, facilitating workshops and ceremonies in different retreat centers, at events and even festivals, wonderful relationships entered my life, old ones evolved, I experienced whole new dimensions of love. I moved on to Costa Rica, where I had an extremely powerful experience clearing deep karmic imprints from my root chakra and breaking through an ancestral pattern.

꩜ In the weeks following my Root Chakra Activation, I experienced a golden wave – I was in an absolute flow state, I felt so much inspiration, joy, abundance, it was wonderful. And then, my heart started to call me back. I felt that it was time to go back to Europe, and so after 7 months in Central America, I went back.

A lot has happened since then, and the journey continues to unfold.
AJTTC is moving through an evolution, and The Path Of The Dancer is being birthed.